so....HERE WE GO BLUEBIRD.

So here I am.In Salt Lake City.
And trust me, Moving here has definitely been an adventure.  Let me start from the beginning...
When this summer started I made a firm resolution that "it would be the BEST summer of my life."  And until the end of June, I thought it WAS the best summer ever.  But then something happened that gave me a major reality check.  Someone had made it clear that I was fighting for a relationship that only I wanted.  Then it hit me.  Why have I been so focused on just having a good time? I mean...YOLO right??? Wrong.  I suppose in a way it's correct. You do only live once.  But that only means you have one chance to get it right.  So instead of spending all my time debating on what to wear out or worrying about that one person, I opened my eyes and looked around me. 

 I was overwhelmed with the beautiful people I saw. 

 From my best friends, to my Mom and Grandma, and even to the guys who make me laugh on karaoke night at Applebee's.  Why had I wasted so much time caring so much about someone who disappointed me over and over again?  When, standing right in front of me, were some of the greatest people I will ever know. So for the next four weeks I rearranged my priorities a little bit.  I Spent more time with all of them.  Hoping to let them know what a huge impact they had made in my life.  The highlight of my last month in St. George was just two days before I left at my last karaoke night.  Along with other great people, my five best friends sat around that table.  Rachel, Alexis, Shalei, Kiri, and Cha Cha.  I wanted to cry of happiness thinking of what they all meant to me and how much they had all changed my life forever.  I had this same feeling saying goodbye to my beautiful Grandma and my family.  I know it's not forever. I know I'll be back to see my family and friends.  But It's still hard to let go, knowing that everything is going to change.  Knowing a lot of your relationships will never be the same. So me and my mom got in the car and drove away from the city I grew up in.  Since then, it's been a whirlwind. 
I'll miss St. George and the comfort I feel at home.  I'll miss my aunt and I having late night talks.  I'll even miss the person who broke my heart. I'll miss Rachel and how there is no one in this world who understands me and my life better.  I'll miss Shalei making me laugh regardless of how I feel.  I'll miss my brown gurl Lex ;) who made my life so bright when it wasn't. I'll miss a lot of things and people and memories. 
But the truth is, ready or not, I'm going to start a new adventure and meet even more great people and find so much happiness in the life I have been dying to live.  A free one.  An UNFORGETTABLE one. :)
I think I'm ready now, with the help of all the amazing people in my life.
I know I can do the impossible because of them.
And want to know a secret? 
I can't wait.

So... Here we go bluebird. :)